my horrible brain

she wasn’t my best friend 

 yeah we didn’t get a long

never thought I’d be singing this song

She wasn’t my girlfriend

yeah she didn’t stick around

never thought i’d be making this sound

We never were anything

we’ll never be anything

so

so why the fuck do i sing

why fuck does the hole soul feel like you could fill it

why the fuck do i want you

you dont like me

your not even like me 

I remember everything like it was yesterday

I remember the taste of whiskey and cigarettes when you kissed me

you taste like a bad decision but felt like fire under my finger tips reminding me that I’m alive

I am alive

we are alive

you are alive

You say you’re not people person

well I’ll exterminate the fucking human race to put a smile on your face

and you drew a heart on my hand 

yeah that really stuck with me

because 3 days later when you didn’t care 

it was still there

I am alive

we are alive

you are alive

I’ve got good morals but a bad heart

yeah you need to tell me what the right thing to do is

but that doesn’t mean its what im going to

• • I sing songs about self loathing 
    and everyones a sellout
    till someone offers me a job
    and you might call that hypocrisy 
    but wait till you have no money
    I realize that I sitting on pedestal milking you for sympathy
    and evey song I write is just me me me me
    but everyones starring in a mirror
    and this just honesty
    
    fuck me 
    drug me 
    hug me 
    
    hate me 
    hit me
    forget me
    Sometime I stare in to that mirror and I see something worth while
    but thats because your standing behind me
    If I were waldo I wouldn’t want you to find me
    so I’ll let this lazy writing and depression define me
    And I’ll hide behind a rope in that red cap
    because im to lazy to fucking cope 
    
    fuck me 
    drug me 
    hug me 
    
    hate me 
    get me 
    hit me
    
    I went to the store this morning
    they were fresh out of hope
    I went to the confessional 
    and the priest just said nope
    sometimes i stare into that mirror and i think its a window 
    and what i sees not really me
    sometimes i lie to my self in song so i seem less crazy
    
    fuck me 
    drug me 
    hug me 
    
    hate me 
    get me 
    hit me
    
    still me and it’s all that I see
    so kill me

• 

  February 3

  Andrew Ring

I’ve got enough camel cash to invest in cancer

and when my dividend comes in

I’ll be coughing up a lung like

I never saw this coming mom but you need to calm down

because I’m not dead yet

Oh I’ve seen disease and death

Oh I’ve been down in the dirt

Yeah I’ve been hurt

but I’m okay and that’s how it’ll stay

Never been good enough for you

never been good enough for all the bullshit you put me through

never been strong enough to hold you up

never cared enough not to give up

Oh I’ve seen disease and death

Oh I’ve been down in the dirt

Yeah I’ve been hurt

but I’m okay and that’s how it’ll stay

jon died that night

and I didn’t give a fuck

yeah maybe I’m stuck

but what can I say

todays been another bad day

are you okay?

Yeah I’m okay [repeat louder and louder]

Sometimes i sit in front seat and drink whiskey

staring through the windshield like take me away

Staring at the bottom of the bottle like dont go away

foot on the gas pedal

brain on a break down 

lets go south till i can’t stear anymore

I’m going to drink till i can’t hear anymore

I sit in the car alone or with you

Screaming at the sky or into your eye

DARE ME TO DRIVE

DARE ME TO DIE

I’ll do it for you

I’m at your apartment

now sitting in the drive way 

drinking that pain away

I’ll drive home when I start to die

love was always a lie

I sit in the car alone or with you

Screaming at the sky or into your eye

DARE ME TO DRIVE

DARE ME TO DIE

I’ll do it for you

You called me on the phone

said this is the end

I’m sick of your  semi suicidal bullshit

its like everything you say means save me

well no one can save you from yourself

so go suffer somewhere away from me

I sit in the car alone or with you

Screaming at the sky or into your eye

DARE ME TO DRIVE

DARE ME TO DIE

I’ll do it for you

drink till I’m dead

drink till the streets are red

Drink till I can’t hear 

drink till I can’t stear 

trying to trip your dog
your dog won’t let me pass it
i’m gonna take your eyes out
i’m gonna take your eyes out
i’m gonna take your eyes out
i like that you use squint
i’m gonna open my soda
it’s i like that you just squink
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